Daddy issues 2

 Before my mom's death i was never okay with her relationship with my father 

she was toughly kind 

she gave us everything  she could to make us happy 

but dad never appreciate what she done for us 

till the day she passed away 

and i held the grudge for that 

my mom was my favorite person in the whole world 

i can't ever blame any1 for her death

she kept her anger inside till she exploded 

i lost her 

my dad too 

he lost her 

i was never in a good phase with him not before not now 

and i think 

not ever 

maybe he sees my mom in me 

maybe his too sad to deal with me 

we always had something to fight  about

we're so good at fighting 

money rondom stuff 

money 

money 

money ...

since i moved out now 

and i'm all good 

i'm okay with missing him and check on him daily 

but never okay to live with him again 

i'm pain in his ass i guess 

i never meant to make him sad 

i wish i can see him a happy man 

whether with some woman or by himself 

i can't ever feel his love 

my mom's love 

is more than enough 

i'm carring it in my heart till the day i join her  

Dady issues

 I don't think that i ever hated my father 

I hated his atittude 

But i never really hated the person 

I get angry 

But mostly i feel sorry for him 

I never saw it in his eyes 

I mean the situation 

I left home for good 

And whenever i havd the chance to see 

The real person 

After all 

His my father 

And after all wherever i go he'll be there for me 

And i promis myself to be there for him  always

And worst of all 

I'm afraid 

If i die 

He'll be sad 

Sad soul 

Sadly i'm okay now 

For now